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Go back to basics to understand that first magical moment that enticed many of us to pursue a lifetime of photography.
Find a book that was a basic text book when you had to obtain a photographic qualification to have a hope of getting a job in a photographic organization. The Ilford Manual of Photography is a starter. Then buy a cheap 35mm camera and some processing equipment and 'have a go'. In the past I have built a wooden camera as the first photographers did, they were the 'owners' of photography. Now photography is owned by the camera manufacturers and the technology you need to see the image.
So, get back to the basics and understand how photography has been changed into what it is today. This will give you a greater clarity on where you want to go.